Left wondering

I have not updated in some time so I am feeling that I should but with what is the current dilema. I was told that reading some of my entries it sounded like someone was killing me, I suppose in many ways I did it to myself. I can't just act off of impulse in the real world, I have to consider everything all the possibilities and such. Things that changed have begun to right themselves and after a interesting conversation I have been feeling much better and more relaxed. Losing a friend can be quite trying and things are back to normal well more or less.

I have noticed changes back to normalcy in my soccer, granted I still yell at people in my house (the defense). The smack talk has quit thankfully, it is more of a show of skill than verbal insults and taunting that is just not my style. I finally got to play the way I like, in the blazing heat and playing the entire game with no subs. I miss those days.

I keep catching myself thinking in stanzas, and just through a question left unanswered in my head. I think in essay format which I find quite odd, and yet quite amusing all the same.

Bree has a new boyfriend as of recently and she seems happy and that makes me happy. I was asked if i was jealous and I am not like I said I am happy so don't bother asking me. I was also asked how long I think they will last and that just pissed me off. I explained that the same thing happened to us and that was just a prick move. Then they say something like "oh but I never saw those two getting together." Hell not many people saw us getting together and things worked very well. I wish them the best and Bree more than deserves it. She helped me cope with things, she taught me more than any teacher could. Best of luck, you two have my best wishes.

I found another song that can give me goose bumps. Only one song ever has and that is Noise Ratchet - A Way To The Heart, the new song is Amber Pacific - If I Fall. They are a great band and have such great use of lyrics and musical talent. If you want a listen give them a shot or even just this song.